I don’t know if I’ve said this before but I am super cynical. Or at least, I’ve become super cynical. I wasn’t always like this. I was a pretty happy and relatively normal person. I’m not saying I’m not happy now but I’m just bitter. Like really bitter. I call it the Bitter Hag Syndrome (BHS).
I was sitting with a friend the other day and we were talking about how we’ve lost all faith in love and life at the age of 23 and 25 respectively. Like we’re too young to be this bitter about life. But as it turns out, we’ve both been through our fair share of shit. So becoming a bit closed off is normal. But I’m just straight up bitter and cynical and she’s well on her way to becoming a lot like me.
The world does not need another cynic.
But this whole thing got me thinking. Why the hell am I so bitter? Because I’m single? No, I figured that the problem runs deeper than that. Being single is the best thing that’s happened to me. The reason all of this cynicism and bitterness is present is that it’s in my head. Because I am literally living in my head.
Being alone and being lonely are two different things. I think a lot of my recent mood swings have been because I’m lonely, not because I’m alone.
I don’t get it. Why do we let trivial things like boys and relationships control such a large portion of our lives? But I found a solution for that also. Take all your anger and energy and frustration and direct it towards something productive and meaningful like your career. Or something.
Okay, now I really don’t know what this post was supposed to be about.
But it is what it is.
Until next time.
Live long and prosper.
May the Force be with you.